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it's been over half a century since we lost the children. the population dessimated, the last generation gone, left the world more 'equal' than ever.

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i live in an old catholic church on 37th and 5th avenue. most people steer away from these places, thinking the desire to escape the flesh must be stronger here than elsewhere.
but i like the stainglass windows; they remind me of old candy shops or toy stores.

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i remember my great grandfather telling my sister and i stories once. he used to live out in the country, a place with no cities. during the days in the summer he went to the peach orchard with his father and in the late afternoon rode home in a wagon full of peaches. i think that would be nice. a wagon full of peaches.

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today i met up with my friend elephant. he lives in an old museum that once was a public school, and we had tea. elephant had two kids, once. he has pictures of them that he carries around in a frame.

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i found myself walking in the subway tunnels. the f line. as i skitted the rats and the piles of rubble, i looked up and there was a screen picture of my daughter. her face was pale and overexposed, the mouth moving listlessly and with no sound. she was talking, but not to me.
sometimes i feel i almost understand why the children did what they did. for decades everyone had been becoming more and more selfish. was it really such an unbelievable step? to sever your physical life in exhange for a digital one that lasts forever?

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